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+title: A Transcript
+date: 2018-12-30
+author: Wolfgang Müller
+
+though one thing still disturbs me greatly
+and I don't know whether I am alone in this
+but it is most obvious at night, in the dark
+or in the haze, the fog;
+that I am not fully there - that there is
+in another space, another self, not me
+but indistinguishble from me,
+yet wholly alien.
+
+it is irksome to know this, and
+whilst I have come to learn how to cope,
+it never fully leaves me, this thought
+that I am fake.
+
+it seems an impossible situation, to be
+and not to be at the same time, and to
+hide and show as necessary, just so;
+yes, the necessity of it is still of
+great difficulty. I am not sure
+whether to continue or not, to be,
+to not be, at the same time.
+
+since, in the past, it worked and
+sometimes made it easy.
+yet, it is not honest, and I fear
+being eaten up from the inside
+by this self, and for it
+to take over.
+
+then, nothing will be true
+but everything will go on as if
+it were.
+
+and so I leave this query with
+utmost confusion and no real
+hope of assurance
+that my self be saved and the other
+to be discarded.